It's the last day of the year....already

How did we get here so quickly? December 31st...again. This year has been a whirlwind. I had to look back at my handful of posts to jog my memory of what the hell I did. Apparently I was busy!

I drove from Maryland to Texas! 1,615 miles with my Love and the kids in a minivan. I didn't kill them and only once did I contemplate opening the door, jumping out and begging for mercy. I remember the kids being in awe at the number of cows we saw while driving through Arkansas. I remember going to check out model houses with the kids and envisioning a life living in Texas.  The Z-Man said we couldn't live there because the houses don't have basements. We had so much fun visiting my Love's family. We had breakfast burritos which I could probably make at home but it wouldn't be the same. We went to the Riverwalk, the drive through Animal Safari and to Austin. It was an amazing trip and I can't believe we did it! I remember wanting to cry when I finally made the right turn back into our apartment complex after the long drive home. We're going to make the trip again in 2011. This time on an airplane. I hope!

This year I also went to Cleveland to take care of my good friend Sara. This trip was made by possible by some amazing friends who I've met through Twitter. I wish I could have stayed longer. I consider Sara and her family MY family.

My last trip this year was to NYC for BlogHer! At the end of the trip I lost my voice. It was a good time!

In between my traveling, I found time in the last two months of the year to be on TV. Just another day in the life of the girlfriend of a rock star. In October I was interviewed by WUSA 9 about bullying. You can read all about that here. This week I was on The Rachel Ray Show. It was a segment that filmed back in August while at BlogHer. This was completely unintentional. My insane cackle at the end will forever make me laugh at myself. In a good way.

In 2010 I continued on the weight loss journey. I tried a little of this, ate a little of that. I'm pretty sure that I weigh more than I did on January 1, 2010 but not too much more. Remember, that nice scale I bought so I could face the number? I shoved it under the bed where it now collects dust. It never had anything nice to say. I may pull it out in 2011, maybe not. I'm going to take it one day at a time.

This year my kids grew taller. The Z-Man has surpassed me in height at 12 years old. I'm still not okay with this. The Princess has spent the last few months without any front teeth. It's the cutest thing I've ever seen. I call her my little old lady. I can say without a doubt that 2010, as busy as I kept myself, I truly enjoyed every second with my kids. Becoming a mom when you're 20 and 25 is incredibly hard. I think I'm finally growing up and learning to cherish every moment. My babies are growing up so fast.

I'm not making any resolutions for 2011. I don't see the point when I know I won't make it past two weeks. Why set myself up for disappointment?

My plans for the new year include more travel, more family time, more laughing, more smiling and enjoying the new found knowledge that deep down I am really happy. I've tried to resist the fact that I kinda like making a meal for my family. I think I'll embrace that in 2011. I'm coming into my own doing "mommy" stuff. There are times when it feels like me against the world. There is never enough money, I can never get enough sleep, I'm fat and I'm just damn depressed. I can't change the chemistry in my brain but I can change how I deal with the not so fun stuff.

I'm madly in love with my girlfriend, in a few weeks I'll be officially divorced from my babies daddy, my children are healthy. I have an amazing family and I feel truly blessed! For 2011 I'm going to focus on all the good and positive things that surround me.

I wish you health, happiness, laughter and love in the new year!
Love,



P.S. I'm moving to Wordpress and I've got a pretty new blog to debut in a few weeks. So excited!