Open. Close.

Friday, September 17, 2010

I open up my Blog, click new post and then nothing. I sit and stare at the blank screen for hours. Then I save the titled but blank page and sign out. I can't even tell you how many times I've done this open and close dance this week alone. It's not that I don't have anything to say. I do. It's just that 1) with my asshole troll who just waits for me to click "publish" so he can leave a nasty comment 2) fear of hurting those I love when I all want to do is write out my feelings... I don't say anything.

So that is where I am. I don't like how this feels. What is the point or purpose of this blog if it just sits? I have this self imposed notion that I should only write about happiness, sunshine and rainbows. In reality, the past few weeks have been filled with anything but. Can you end a sentence with "but" because I just did.

These past few weeks have been one bad situation after another. I don't mean bad as in I got a speeding ticket. I'm talking about foreclosure notices, cancer, chemo, death, crazy gunmen and natural disasters. Every.Single.Day I was receiving bad news about people that I love and care about. It's all been too much to bear. I feel like if I hear one more sad thing I'm going to lose my mind.

This morning as I was getting ready for work I was watching The Today Show. I stopped and listened to the incredible story about almost 2 year Gore Otteson. Despite all the bad news, the gloom and doom and depression of these last few weeks, I still believe in miracles.

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That is an amazing story about that little guy. Glad you shared it. Hang in there and hit post every time because you can. Trolls live under bridges and are scared of the light, keep shining on and the troll will disappear.

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