Poetry Day 2

I'm back to share two more poem's with you. You can read the first post here. Both poems were published in The American Poetry Annual by The Amherst Society in 1995. I was 17 years old and had not graduated from high school. I submitted a few other poems but they were so dark and depressing. I wasn't surprised when they were rejected. When I did receive notification that two of my poems would be published I had to beg my parents on hands and knees to order the book. If I accomplish nothing else in life, besides giving birth to two 8 lb 2 oz babies, I can say that I am a published poet.

Without further ado, and please remember I was 17, my poems.

Wondering
Love makes me wonder about life as I know it
Sometimes love doesn't make me think at all
You feel as though you're invincible, floating on a cloud
And then one day the cloud floats away
Along with the love
You wonder what went wrong, why the feelings changed
Get over it they say, but the love in your heart still says.
-Copyright Chantel G.

Remember
You are all I can think about
You are all I dream about
Pictures of you flash in my head
Your name escaped softly from my lips
Did you hear me when I cried out your name late that night?
It was you I wanted but I couldn't let you know
It was you I wanted but I didn't let it show
But now that we have grown apart
We can never have what we once did
I long for you to want me, to think about me, to even call me on the phone
Our friendship couldn't sustain the pain you caused, but still I can't let go.
-Copyright Chantel G.

You would think I had a serious love affair in high school right? You would be wrong but I still love ya! I never had a boyfriend. Probably because I was gay. Or it could have been because I went on one date in 9th grade against my parent's "orders" and of course I got caught. I think the word spread that I was too much trouble to date.

Do you have any heart wrenching love poems from your teenage years? Please share them so I don't feel so lonely.

A Poem About Stress

When I was in younger and dealing with this and an abusive relationship which I have yet to write about, I wrote poetry. ALL THE TIME! It was the only way I could get my feelings out. I have notebooks full of dark, depressing odes to my life. Some of the poems are downright awful but I keep this notebook to look back on my life. I have come a long way.

This week I'll be sharing a few of my favorite poems. The first poem made me laugh and it's so silly. I can't remember where I was working when I wrote this. I obviously didn't enjoy the job. This poem resonates with me because I always feel stressed. It sad to think I felt this way 15 years ago! It's like I was predicting my future. I hope it makes you laugh.

Stress
Written: 6/12/96 by Chantel G. (maiden name)

Stress
Stress wears your body out
Stress fries your brain
Stress makes you panic
Stress who’s to blame?

Running around frantic
A million things on your mind
Who, what, when, where, why?
Why must you do everything?
Can’t these losers thinks for themselves
A billion and one sticky notes
One on your phone, on your desk, in the car, oh shit, there’s one stuck in your hair

Stress
Stress wears your body out
Stress fries your brain
Stress makes you panic
Stress who’s to blame?

Do this, do that, hurry now, don’t be late
No time to eat, can’t even think straight
Your feet ache, your back breaks
Your head is split in two
But before you crack or melt away
I just have a few things to say

You are a good person
You do the best you can do
There are only 24 hours in this day
Take time out to do for you
Unplug the phones
Read a book
Call your mother and wish her well
Do whatever you have to do
Just take time out for you…ONLY YOU
Please yourself, but do it soon because
Before you know it…

The bloodhounds will be back on your back
With do this, do that
If they want things done down to a “T”
Tell them to shove it up their ass!

*This poem is property of Chantel W. Stealing will result in junk punches.*